Goodbye and thanks for your inspiration...

No matter how long we have live.. probably we are still far from understanding what life is all about. Reading thru M.Toh's blog awake me somehow. She appear as a clown but live life as an embittered prune. Somehow i feel so sad for her. I dont wanna stay stagnant then lose faith and i dunt wanna take guilt trip anymore. Its so true that life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away.

Apr. 20th, 2010 | 08:52 pm

What have I become? My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end

You could have it all, my empire of dirt.
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt.

If I could start again a million miles away,
I would keep myself,
I would find a way.

I'll tell you exactly how it ends. I'll do you a favour go far away one last time forever
Although I know "forever" is often nothing more than just for a while.
Sometimes I think I'm happy here, but sometimes I know I pretend. And I fucking hurt too.
I wish this could be any other way, but I just don't know what else I can do.
I'll disappear, for a while. Then everything ends, here,
forever.

ps: yes. now we know how it ends. And everything ends, here, FOREVER.

pps: rest in peace M.toh.